...what would it be? Not physical. But something about your personality or your behavior that you wish you did differently?
As I start to put myself "out there" and getting into the dating world, I'm feeling trepidacious. I will be the first to admit that dating brings out the worst in me. It's not easy getting my attention or my affection. But once you do, I'm hooked. And then the expectation grows and my crazy over-thinking head starts making assumptions and in the end, I've sabotaged whatever could have been by not allowing things to happen organically and in the right time. Kairos.
I really, really dislike this about myself. I'm not a "go with the flow" type of person. I'm not a "let's see what happens" type of person. I'm not a "dating around" type of person.
So I'm at a crossroads and I see myself as having 2 choices:
1. I either change the worst part of me and fight against it and force a better, healthier person out of it,
OR
2. I don't jump in and I just wait and hope that magically I'll happen upon the man of my dreams, not have to date him, but we'll just know and everything will just fall into place.
I either throw my net out wide and deep and see what I catch, or I stay on the boat and hope the one, best fish just decides to jump out of the water into my hands. Ha! I still think choice #2 feels better...safer...
I sure hope I don't end up getting hurt...wish me luck...
As I start to put myself "out there" and getting into the dating world, I'm feeling trepidacious. I will be the first to admit that dating brings out the worst in me. It's not easy getting my attention or my affection. But once you do, I'm hooked. And then the expectation grows and my crazy over-thinking head starts making assumptions and in the end, I've sabotaged whatever could have been by not allowing things to happen organically and in the right time. Kairos.
I really, really dislike this about myself. I'm not a "go with the flow" type of person. I'm not a "let's see what happens" type of person. I'm not a "dating around" type of person.
So I'm at a crossroads and I see myself as having 2 choices:
1. I either change the worst part of me and fight against it and force a better, healthier person out of it,
OR
2. I don't jump in and I just wait and hope that magically I'll happen upon the man of my dreams, not have to date him, but we'll just know and everything will just fall into place.
I either throw my net out wide and deep and see what I catch, or I stay on the boat and hope the one, best fish just decides to jump out of the water into my hands. Ha! I still think choice #2 feels better...safer...
I sure hope I don't end up getting hurt...wish me luck...
