But truthfully, it's quite lonely. My only interactions are typically with work colleagues who I don't know well, or with people paid to take care of me either in the hotel or at restaurants or in stores. Emotional connection is zero. And getting to know a city can be entertaining. But, not necessarily...fulfilling?
In any case, this past trip I found myself in a really dark head space and emotionally just...depressed. Singapore and Hong Kong, for all that they offer, are not especially lovely or serene locations. They are busy and things are costly and life feels...hard there.
This wore me down a bit...and now that I'm home, I'm trying to figure out how to knock out of this funk. But mostly, I'm trying to figure out, in this huge planet of ours, no matter where I'm at, how not to feel so alone...
View from my hotel room @ the Shangri-La Hong Kong
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Work travel is hellish hard, I hate it. Can you give yourself a bit of recharging time? We all need it now and again...
I think that the knack is acceptance, that even when surrounded by our family + friends a part of us is alone, but not in a sad way. Some people need/ accept this in different ways. Its interesting that you separate the personal from the books, that's difficult for me to do for me when reading (and to a lesser extent) writing are only satisfying when there is a connection with my RL.
@kj - I've been thinking about some 'me' time. But I'm not quite sure what that...looks like? :)
@Karen - I have to admit there are times when I really do enjoy being alone. I never quite know when the feeling of loneliness will creep in and take over. But, I guess that's all part of...life? ha! Yeah...
Awww, sorry to hear that, Susan. But I understand -- being in a different city (or in your case different country) could feel very lonely when you cannot connect with people much. I hope when you're back, you find a way to reconnect with your family and friends
- AMI
@ami - thanks, love! I'm not sure why this trip, particularly, hit me so hard. Sometimes I love being able to travel and explore. I think Singapore and Hong Kong (especially), just didn't do it for me. :( I'm home now...trying to reconnect and find my safe place... :)
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