MM has officially been taken out of consideration for Susan's First Boyfriend In San Francisco status. I know alot of you were pulling for him...hoping I'd end up with the nice guy. Ack...but it was just too much.
As you may recall, before leaving for San Diego, MM and I had a phone conversation in which he explained to me that he was still figuring stuff out in his life and wasn't sure if marriage and children were in his future. He told me that he wanted to let me know in order to be fair to me and protect me from getting hurt. I was just really irked that we were having this conversation after only 2 weeks of casually dating. And that really started to fester in me.
When I got back in town, MM gave me a call Tuesday night and we shot the shit, catching up on our weekend adventures. It was pleasant and fine. We hung up. I get a call back immediately afterward. MM wanted to know if I had anything else I wanted to talk to him about. Huh? Honestly, what does this guy want from me? Is he being passive-aggressive and hoping his "future" talk would make me go away? Or did he want me to just be aware and dive in anyways? Did he want me to say that I was seeing other guys and he should see other girls? Or did he want the opposite? I was lost. I told him I had nothing else on my mind...and then immediately turned around and started typing him an email. HA! I am a coward. I know.
The long and short of it is that I came clean telling MM that his "future" talk annoyed me and threw me off guard. yada, yada, yada... He responds that he still wants to see me but we should see other people and take it slow. yada, yada, yada... I respond that I'm not sure we're really that compatible and I'm pretty sure it's not going anywhere. yada, yada, yada... Oh! And I end it by saying that as he starts figuring his shizznet out and getting his life together, if he ever wants to grab coffee or hange out, he should give me a call...and then I turned off my phone so I wouldn't have to talk to him if he called. I AM SO LAME!
Ack...I like him. But, the drama...it's too much...
