Ode to my guy...

I heart my boyfriend.  (note: "heart" and "love" are different...don't want to needlessly or prematurely freak anyone out!  :) )  Some days I want to grab him and kiss him.  Some days I want to hold him and squeeze.  Some days I crave to see his face.  Some days I just like talking to him quietly.  He's a good one.  

I don't think you'd even believe some of the things he does and says to show kindness to me everyday.  I can hardly believe it myself sometimes.  He texts me to remind me to be good to myself that day.  He sometimes just tells me to breathe and be proud of who I am.  He tells me never to apologize for taking care of myself emotionally.  He says I'm pretty...and he means it.  He's a good one.

At the start of every relationship, I tell myself not to be THAT GIRL - the past version of myself in relationships - the crazy, emotional, erratic, insecure, please-don't-break-up-with-me girl that always seems to manifest once I take on the title of "girlfriend".  I've always hated that girl.  I've always been afraid of that girl. But this time, for once, I actually feel sorry for that girl.  I want to take that girl into my arms and tell her its ok.  I want to convince that girl that she deserves to be treated well and adored.  I want to tell that girl not to be afraid to be alone or afraid to be with someone.  I want to tell that girl that a relationship can be beautiful and healthy and safe.  

I can do this now because GQ has modeled that for me.  He's my constant reminder that a relationship can be beautiful and healthy and safe.  And I believe it.  

He's a good one.